Final Outfield before we head off the Wallaby. it was a super super XIONG 3D2N outfield. i think i didnt even sleep more than 8hrs combine man. well, no fresh ration. jus combat ration for those days.

we started off going into tactical mode the moment we reach TVMA. that means, our LBVs, helmet and weapon have to be on us at all times and not to add we have to camou on. it was really very challenging as we had not had such training in a long while. we were also to lagger at our vehicles. the outfield was splitted into 3 different types of training. Armour Attack, Infantry Attack and Delay Defence. we were suppose to play out these roles and to assult the other platoons or defend against them. sleep was scarce. as we had to be alert at all times. the last day my platoon did delay defence and we set off for our defence position at midnite. arriving there we had to set up shellscapes and that involved a lot of digging before we could rest abit. but then, even rest was a bother coz of all those buzzing mosquitoes that doesnt seem to be afraid of anything, eg. repellent.

that week itself was also rather slack as we returned back on wednesday night and had the whole of thursday to myself with nothing on. friday was suppose to be an off for us as our PC had given us off. and due to our fuck up CSM, we had our off voided and had to return back to camp. after that then he tell us that we had to go down for ATP despite the fact that we had been asking for the whole week and wat we were told was that we dun need to go down.

i think that it is really stupid of our CSM to do so. i mean, sometimes he really do things without thinking. if he had want us to stay and go for the ATP, i would galdly do so as long as he had jus say it in advance and not when our offs were approved and we were half way on our way home then tell us that we have to go. it's really fuck up la. i think he cant stand the fact that we are free. always doing some sort of stunt on us wan. like that time during trade's course, keep playin with our book out timing. it's like not that first time. really screw him la. then in the end it made all of us super dulan and sians. i think that care for soldiers is really not on his list of core values.

i really wish that we could change our CSM. and to think that i was even tryin to convince the others tat he was not as bad as he is. looks like i am wrong. take back wat i say. and also our PC seems so afraid of CSM. i mean, they are our PCs after all, i feel that they should at least try to stand up for us like how our PS would and not jus agree with whatever he say even though they know that it is not right or it seems wierd. maybe that's y we jus respect them for their rank and not them as a person. think the only one that seems like a PC is PC7.

also, which crazy motherfucker have to take off on saturday? store party covered, ammo party covered, sentry covered. so SAW gunners go down for wat fuck? really stupid lo. i had to take off on a SATURDAY? that's really stupid lo. wasting my offs. that time when SAW gunners had our ATP, i dun see them helpin us at all. rather we were doing everything ourselves, including the stores. this time round, i dun get it why we have to go down. company intergrity? my foot. i think it is otherwise. they jus dun wan us to have a long weekend. things have really changed for the worst with the change of OC coz it was already bad since CSM is around.

i was super pissed yesterday. think i stop at here. some things are better left unsaid. going to alvin's party later. haha. that asshole is finally 21. going to pull stunt on him hopefully.