50th CLT Course

Finally i am back home aft 2 and a half weeks of staying in camp. i am finally home!!! and i am finally updating my dead blog.

this 3 weeks have been a rather eventful weeks with lots of ups and lots of downs. New friends i have made throughout this course and i hope this friendship can be maintain. this clt course marks half a century of CLTs being churned out by the system and i feel honored to be part of it. though along the way there were many hiccups, i am glad that it is finally over and that we can all now move on to be a CLT and to enjoy what left of my hols.

but also sad things do happen. what was once nice and sweet is now bad and falling apart. who knows that things would have happen so when we first entered the gates into Amoy Quee. i would not point fingers at anyone but rather jus point it at myself for being so plain dumb and blinded. i really cant be bothered already. i tried and tried and nothing seem to work. like i say all up to Fate. Lady Luck has always shine on me. Hope this time round will be no exception.

Syndicate 4 is ming hui and my syndicate. and it ROCKS! you know why? coz of the people in it that make it so. every syndicate would probably say that they are the best and they are probably right in their own way. but personally feel that our's have something that stands out from the rest. the many trials & tribulations that we went through together as a syndicate from day 1 till the day they pass out cannot be measured. i believe others have not went through what we went through and it bonds us closer together emotionally and spiritually. and as i watch them mature through the 3 weeks that i spent with them and finally when they pass out i am filled with a sense of pride as i know that these are the cadets that i trained out. not that i wanna compare syndicates. but that is how i feel. S4 i am sooooo PROUD of you!!!

in my 2 years of service to the corps, i can say that i am jus plain lucky. i have never work my way up as the moment i pass out i was thrust straight to the top and i remained there till now. now i can really understand why some CLTs would rather take flights than higher appointments because of the sense of pride and joy when you watch your cadets pass out. for me, every batch of cadets are exactly the same. i do not feel much pride & joy as they pass out because i do not share that bond with them. but this CLT Course really changed my perspective of things and i feel that i came out a better leader learning much from the cadets themselves who indirectly taught me a few lessons. i really treasure these lessons as it really helped me improve as a person.

certain events happen durin the course. in the process, i feel that i have given more than i should and this time round the means i take to get my result is simply too great. however, i feel that it's worth it even though people around me may not understand but as long as i understand myself that is what matters. one may call me egoistical but ya, after all these incidents, i feel that bothering about me, myself and i is more important than being concerned about people that jus dun plain appreciate it.

the instructors, especially the guys rock big time man. Kenny, Azri, Azmi, Jin Fu, Ridzman, Farhan, Chee Yong, Meng, Warren, Idam. for being there when you are needed and for jus perserving on even though there may be times when things are not in our favour. really enjoy the crazy times we had in the bunk and throughout the course. the many 'guys' gossips sessions that we had out of earshot of others. it is really my privilage to be able to work with you dudes. as for the females, nice working with you all too, too bad there isn't any more chance to work with you all in the future as you all are leavin the service of the corps.

this 50th CLT Course marks the end of another chapter in my history book. and as we all move all with our lives, i wish the best for everyone in the course. well, the end of a chapter marks the beginning of another and as i enter the final year of my service i hope that this book will have an ending that reads 'happily ever after'.

what done is done, i hope things can really be like how it is in the past. i cannot rewrite what that had happened but i can hope to change what that has not yet happened.