did not go school today. rather decide to take the time off to recharge my battery due to the upcoming mid year examinations next week. nothing much happen today though. went out for lunch with feline at northpoint, then hang out there with her while waiting for danny who was coming down from school to meet her to complete the slides presentations for her UK Aerospace Challenge.

after that i made my way down to town to look for khai and dom, guess what, my batt was flat. so had to borrow dom's phone to use. then we went present hunting. and after that i had to rush home to go out for St Gab's COC Parade. and i was really late for the parade. went to meet up with Alvin and Merv to go. when we were about to catch the cab down, WL call to tell us that the parade was over. saddening. :((

what did i do yesterday? went to school. and only less than half the class was in school yesterday. had pe, where i hurt my leg due to hafizah puttin the floorball stick between my legs and the old wound which i got from cycling jus open a bit. and felt a lil dizzy after pe. think i overexerted myself. and feline dear was fussin over me like a mother man. lol. then louisa came calling me and tot that i was rather cold towards her while the matter of fact was that i was not feeling that well. so ya. haha.

long day tomorrow. morning- AMK COC Parade. afternoon- Elly's birthday celebration. evening- dinner with meow meow. haha

yet another day in school. what else can u expect cept for it being boring? suppose to go for tution today. but suddenly had that guily pangs so ask my meow meow out to study. she's irresistable? lol.

anyways, met her at J8. went there with pokky who went there to collect my winnings for the previous round of 16 matches which i luckily won. over at the mrt station, she spotted michs and we bumped into michs again later at the food court, then we went to food court for lunch. following which, we went to coffeebean to study. spent nearly the whole afternoon there and i am proud to announce that i completed most of the backdated homework that i owe the teachers and they are more or less ready for submission.

after we studied at coffeebean, went to cafe cartel to makan. where we both had st louis pork ribs. ok. i really cant finish the ribs. the serving was really huge man.

guess that is all today for the chornicles of the bird and his cat. lol. oops. dun kill me for it man.

haha why are all their reactions the same? whenever we go boo! even mine is the same.

anyways, school started yesterday. a brand new term, a brand new day, with not much changes cept that i get to go home earlier every monday and tuesday alr.

school as usual is boring cept that i was looking forward for the ending of school. coz i was really rotting there. after school, went out to meet my darling feline for study session at AMK Library. well, she did her econs while i strove to complete my history homework which i did. anyways did not study long too as she had to be home for dinner. before studyin, we had lunch at Ramen Ten at Jubilee. the food was pretty ok la.

today in school, nothing much too. but the class look rather empty as everyone seem to be missing. lessons was as usual boring. and i came straight home after school to answer my bed's call.

that is all for now man.

Offically my Last Camp for NCC!!!! Air Spec Course 06!!!! as you can see, i came back from it feeling both happy and sad. happy in the sense that i had great fun and totally enjoyed myself at Spec Course. Sad coz it is really my last camp for NCC and i guess i am goin to miss all of these and i am not goin to be the only one as it was last camp for quite a few of us over there. and it was really a fitting grand finale for some of us as it was really eventful with many funny things and cock ups happenings that make it so memorable.

i can safely say that the spirt of family is really amongst us, as we go for the course not for the sake of going to fill up the places but rather going coz we really want to make a difference in the cadets' life and this is a sentiment that is being shared by most of the CLTs that were attending the course as instructors. as quoted by jib, what we do is voluntary and it is our free time and that is what is at stake, no one force us to be there and we came of our own free will. we have bonded and become much closer and as always, we are a family :))

school is starting tmr!!! ARGHHH!!! it seemed only like yesterday that hols started and now it has finally ended. :(( saddening. esp when i am beginning to enjoy myself during this hols. which also means that exams are goin to start. :((( worst still.

slpt for the whole day today. and hit the bed the moment i reach home and showered it was good nights sweet dreams for me. was super tired despite it being a 2 day camp.

anyways, also wanna wish feline good lucks for her papers for the entire week!!! Good Lucks!!! and following which is my papers alr. bleahs.

was super busy yesterday so i did not blog. haha. mark commented that my blog is rather irregular in updating. well, reason is i had been super busy for the past week that is why i am unable to update.

what did i do yesterday? let me see, started off the day by going for training at Changkat. my 1st in quite a few months. and my part Ds were like preparing for their steppin down alr. how fast 3 years fly by. it was only like yesterday when i first saw them and how much they have grown and mature. i mus really say that i am proud of them and it was really my luck to be their flight commander. i would say it's fate. it is really good to see that changkat is walkin down the path that we, the CLTs had set for them. we laid the foundations and now it is up to them to carry on from where we left off. you can really feel that sense of pride that the male unit have in themselves and that level of confidence that most of that exlude is like a reminience of st gab's of the yesteryear.

after that i have to leave training much earlier as i was suppose to meet feline to study at AMK library. was late coz i was held up at Changkat. then we did not study for quite long and decided to stop coz she was really tired due to a rather eventful and interesting night the day before and she did not sleep well.

reach home and fiq dropped me a call. and dropped several bombshells on me regarding spec course. ok. i admit. i was seriously stunned. then spend the entire night settling all those issues.

anyways i would be meetin shams to book in to HQ soon and i would be gone for 3 days. haha. and going to try to get that garfield that feline wants. cats do attract other cats eh?

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ok. jus came back home not long ago from a movie with feline. X-Men 3. watching it again for the 2nd time coz i wanna catch the clip after the credits whereby Xavier was shown to be still alive. as we suspected there would be an X-Men 4 regardless of what the producers may say. well. all thanks to feline's mum who got the free tickets for this movie that i am able to catch the ending credits. haha.

if you are thinking what am i doin for the whole day i give u 2 answers. NCC & Mugging. went to HQ for Spec Course Meeting this morning and spent nearly the whole day there settling stuffs, finally after lunch i was able to sit down to finish up all my homework. well, was studyin with Feline lor. suppose to do it somewhere else but ya. due to the time, decide to jus mug in HQ. after that went home, changed then go out to meet her again for the movie.

that is all for my otherwise boring and uneventful day.

expect a reply? nah. not bothered with it. i have better things to do with my time now that the matter have come to a close. moreover, what i do not knw cannot hurt or provoke me and it is best that i do not know, even though everyone around me is telling me about it and are expecting a reply. what has happened has happened. so we shld all jus let it rest. otherwise this will jus go on and on and on. so someone has to stop. not that i am afraid of what, but it is wiser. :)) do not mess with Air la, we are more united than any of you coz we are family :))

did i really take the right route? or was i outsmart myself this time round?

in case, you are wondering what am i talkin about. me not talkin about relationships but rather talkin about education. relationships are the least of my worries nowadays. economics is the greatest worry of all. hate that subject totally man. university perhaps? nah. hoping to start a business after my A's. have several plans in mind alr. i got enough of education. it's killing me!!!

my biggest worry for this mth and next is mid year! how am i suppose to catch the World Cup with Mid Year goin on?! Grrrrr......

Somebody help me!!! I need a clone. haha. this is a super random post.

had a very interesting IACE AAR in camp yesterday whereby Com Air defended his stand on letting Land CLTs join IACE. well, as much as he may think that i am defensive of what that is Air, he is wrong this time around. actually, i got nothing left to comment already. those that were there would have known what was my stand on the issue. so shall leave it as such.

after the meetin, fiq, shams, alvin & i went ta do some saikang to clean up and return the stalls that we borrowed for Super Night. then we book out to J8 for lunch, with a little bit of window shoppin before headin home seperately.

that very evening, Feline finally returned home from Ophir, wow, 5 days seem like a long time man. anyways, met her for dinner at Causeway point with Rizal, Winston & Sahibu. then it was home sweet home for all of us.

today, nothing of interest really happened though and it was a rather oridinary and similiar sunday. jus got off the phone with Shi Hong. guess this would be the longest conversation that i had with him in my 3 years with him. An Hour and a Half. rofl. haha.

that is all for now. Spec Course Briefing tomorrow at HQ. yet another day at HQ.

Kayaking today with Elly & Dommie with SK coming along. suppose to meet at 1030, in the end all of us were late with the exception of Dommie who came much earlier and spend his time wisely at the beach lookin out for mermaids. after some time, all of us started to arrive one by one.

there were some technical difficulties pior to kayaking as upon consulting the Sea Sports Club, i realise that out of all of them only i can kayak and rent, coz i was a certified kayaker cum member of the club. lol. then after that it was a hectic search for membership cards to rent the kayaks. and i thought i had got the solution when i called my part Ds to help but apparently their membership expire already. darn anti-climax rite? but later all thanks to wei liang who lend me his card we were able to rent another kayak. haha. it was 3hours past our meetin time that we manage to launch out to sea to start our kayaking.

then that marks the start of a series of hilarious events. first, dom's sandals spoilt. then he went off to buy a new one. next, i lost my specs in the sea but found it eventually. then, dom realise that in his heoricness in coming into the water to look for my specs, he came in with his handphone and wallet. then, i lose one side of my booties only to find it eventually but to lose the other side due to experimentation. haha. a rather eventful day i must say.

that very night, i book into HQ NCC as we have a IACE AAR (After Action Report) the next day in the morning and it was a better idea to stay in HQ rather than to wake up early jus to come to HQ. then we stayed in and the Supernumeries happened to have their gathering that very night so there was food. but i didnt manage to attend coz i was busy packin my stuffs and rushing home from Changi Village. so we had chicken wings, otah and crabsticks that night for Soccer Match. and yes! we caught the World Cup in HQ last night then we chill the whole nite will we fall asleep. guess that is all for an otherwise eventful and interesting Friday.

Guess what i said in my earlier post may have been rather offensive to certain people who happened to be innocent parties. Like Kel and Ying Bei for example. If what i have said really offended you guys. I apologise sincerely for the trauma that may have occured. Sorry! What i blog about was in a moment of anger and irritation.

However, i believe a certain friend of yours owned all of us an apology for the remarks that she passed. I have not defame her as the events stated really did happened and how can i be accuse of defamation if the events really happened and all i did was just to report it as it is? Some of the comments that are being passed were quite insulting and i think that these people may owe her an apology. Thus, i guess i help these few people to apologise to her. Sorry for those insulting Comments that are being passed, YH. but for the rest of the valid comments, i do hope u sit down and reflect on them. :)

Defame means: To damage the reputation, character, or good name of by slander or libel. Did i conjure up false statements with the intention to slander? No. I did not. The events reported were as it happened. There was no modification done to it at all. Therefore, do not accuse me of doing something that i have not done. Moreover, there is a disclaimer on my blog. Read it. :))

Therefore, to Kel. A Thousand Apologies! Sorry once again!

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Just Felt like Saying This! BOO!!! lol.

This Post is dedicated to the few Bitches that unfortunately i have the misfortune of knowing in my 19years of my Life.

What is a Bitch?

According to Dictionary.com, a Bitch is:

1. A female canine animal, especially a dog.
   
2. A woman considered to be spiteful or overbearing.
   
3. A lewd woman.
   
4. A man considered to be weak or contemptible.
   
5. Slang. A complaint.
   Slang. Something very unpleasant or difficult.

in this context, the correct definition would be the 2nd and 3rd explaination. In this post, i shall limit the type of bitches that i know to 1 category, NCC . like i say before, it is because of a few black sheeps among the girls that cause some people out there to may have bad impressions of girls. well, actually these were the gers that i was targeting earlier on.

Recently, IACE (Singapore) had unwanted guests or i would say unwelcomed. They donned the Green Beret and they actually come for something that is exclusively for those donning the Blue Beret or are part of the Blue Berets? Rubbish isnt it? though we are suppose to be one big family there are certain events that we have to draw a line somewhere. apparently, this time they cross the line already. but let's give them the benefit of doubt as after all they are part of NCC and they are the Favourites of certain Higher Ups as claim by them. it would be disastrous to offend them. ooooh, my balls are shrinking already. i am sooooo scared. :))

Air, like any other elements are very protective of what that is our's. We do not cross over and distrub them when they are having events that are purely for Land and they should respect us by doing the same thing too, regardless of what others may say. take sometime back for instance, when one of our's changed her beret for a green one, the uproar that was caused withn Air itself was enough to get Commander Air to try to pacify either side as we view the swopping of berets as something akin to betrayal of your own element.

the same case apply here, Green Berets invade Our Programme, if they come to help, we still can close one eye and let it be though we would still be unhappy about it. our stand has been very clear from the IACE meeting already, we do not want any CLTs not from our Element to help out. they should have felt that they were unwelcomed from then on already, but they were too thick skin to do so.

These jokers did not come to help. they came for a FREE holiday. instead of interacting with all the other cadets, they choose only to interact with the HK cadets or among themselves which in this case is 2 of them onli. A guy and a girl. after enjoyin themselves, guess what they do. Complain, Complain and Complain. if they think that they can do such a good job by all means carry on. if not they shld just shut the fuck up.

On paper, they were suppose to help out for the entire duration of the trip, with only 1 or 2 days without them, but guess what. they did not even come to help at all. choosing instead to come and help as they please much to the displeasure of many. take for example, the visit to the Zoo, these jokers did not even inform us that they are not goin for it, we have to ask them and by then it was already too late and we have already book that amount of tickets and we cannot get it refunded as we bought the tickets on the impressions that they are going. this is only one of the many incidents that happened throughout the Exchange.

if you want somemore incidents, i can give you 2 more, Kayaking at Kallang Sea Training Centre. they only bothered to enjoy themselves with no care for the rest, all of us did not manage to get on the Dragon Boat but these 2 somehow or rather decide to sacrifice the foreign cadets for their own personal interest. the foreign cadets with the exception of HK have not tried this before, isnt it basic courtesy that as hosts, we shld let them do it? they are also the last one to come, first one to leave, the moment we touched shore from our kayak, it is adious for them.

Shopping for the Cadets on Saturday too, we were all suppose to meet at 6pm behind Somerset MRT station, ALL of us AIR people arrived early, these LAND people must extra, they came 30mins later and we all had to wait for them. is it really that hard to keep time? at least when the HK cadets came onboard the bus they bother to apologise. Did these LAND people apologise? NO. they found a seat and seat down, treating their latecoming as if it is something normal.

well, don't you think that Bitch is probably too mild a term to be used as a describtion?

doesnt the above fulfill the 2nd explaination? this event is only one of the events that truly defined them as being a Bitch. there are many others but in this case i shall only touch on one, as it is the most recent. no point digging up the past and make everyone unhappy about it.

as for the 3rd explaination. it is open for our own interpretation. some things are better left unsaid. since being ladies, they would have many weapons up their sleeves that they may use to secure a place in this Exchange. shall not talk about it as i feel rather disgusted thinking about it.

is it really right to complain and make so much noise when no contribution is being done?

is it really right to condemn others when they themselves are guilty of doin the same thing?

is it really right to think that they are above all, when in actual fact they are not? and we just didn't say them coz it would not be nice to do so in front of guests?

these people may come from branded schools, IQ level sure is HIGH, i guess, give them benefit of doubt, but their EQ level is sure LOW. they should really go and reflect on their actions and do something about it. they are spiteful in their comments and they think that the whole world owns them a living. or rather the whole world evolves around them. which sadly to say, they are disillusional.

my recent outburst on what i think about girls is largely attributed to these group of girls. but i must understand the fact that nothing is perfect. there is no perfection but rather imperfection in everyone. it is always present, thus i must live with it. and how do i so? it is best to take it that i do not know these people in the first place and i take it as a learning experience. as close i may be with 1 of them in times long past. she was no different from them and never will be.

i do hope these people would sit down and reflect on their actions rather than condemn everyone except themselves. an apology would be best from them. but i doubt that they would do so as they are too self-centred to bother about it. guess i complain enough already.

This would be my only post on my issues with them. would not be bothered to answer back if there happened to be a reply to my post. I have stated some of what i think about them. if you want the full story i can always sit down and tell you. :))

Bon Voyage to My Dear Feline!!!

She is leaving for Mount Ophir later. This post is dedicated to Her.

Have Fun on Ophir!!! Your Meanie will miss you!!! :))

Warning: This is going to be a super long post.

Finally back to update my dusty blog. *wipes dust off. i have jus completed International Cadet Exchange (Singapore) recently, which was like yesterday. send off the final cadet and officer, Tyler and Phillip from Australia in the evening and Alister in the early morning.

shall start with my reflections on Vietnam Trip first then move on the IACE (Singapore)

Vietnam History Trip (Hanoi) 31st May 06 to 4th June 06

i would say that the trip overall was pretty fun and enjoyable. re-establish my links with my sec and primary school makkals (brothers) and got to see the many different sides of people and i must say my impressions of them have really changed alot. this trip really open my eyes to many things which i onli suspected but not confirmed. if you want to know what i think. jus refer to elly's blog coz i am asking the same type of questions as she is.

Day 1

met dom & sk for lunch at the airport around noon. saw navin there who invited us to join us for lunch. haha, can you believe that i pack my bag onli in the morning as the previous day i was in camp helpin out for IACE. so it was last minute rush for me as i decide what to bring and what to wear.

later, we went to T2 to makan our lunch at the staff canteen and slowly rot our time away there until it was nearly time when mark and inez *aherm* called dom to ask where he is. so sk and i decide to be invisible and hide away. dom went to meet them and later we meet up to go to budget terminal to meet up with the rest of the gang.

what is a trip with out a bottle of vodka? bought a bottle at the DFS before we departed for consumption during the trip. before long, we are goin on board the plane to embark on the great journey towards the unknown- Hanoi. on board the plane, i was pleasantly surprise as it was not as bad as how i picture it out to be, my initial impression was formed by my friends who describe it as if it was really dangerous and run down. but it was nice and comfortable, though the seats were jus a little bit cramp.

and we reach hanoi after a 3 hours flight and when we touch down, we were greeted by Quinn (not the exact spelling but that was how he told us to prounce his name) and taken to a Vietnamese vegetarian restraunt for dinner. though some of the food was rather bland, i must say that it is still very nice. after that we check in to our hotel- Volga Hotel, a 2star hotel but i would say it seems more like a 3 or 4 star hotel. the room condition was good man. i have no complains abt it as i have slpt in worst before. but i like the bed as it is very hard and comfortable.

after unpacking our things, i decide to call it a day and rest i was quite tired due to the fact that i did not sleep for the past 2 days as i was having fun in camp.

Day 2

we visited Ho Chinh Minh's Mausoleum, House & Museum, Hoa Lo Prison and ended off with the Water Puppet Show. i like the water puppet show as it was pretty nice though it was boring for some of it. then in the night, i cause some confusion as Bartley Gang thought i was with the Indian Gang and the Indian Gang thought that i was with the Bartley Gang. haha. while during this time i was in my room sleeping peacefully. the Bartley Gang had a party without me, which i do not really mind as i would rather stay in my room and rest then waste my time with certain irritatin people there. well, i can be anti-social if i want to. do not need company to survive. not the type that without some attention i would feel sad or wat wan.

Day 3

we went to the Vietnam National University and the Temple of Literature. at the university we interacted with the students there and quite enjoyed ourselves though it was burning hot. the students were warm and quite hospitable and we felt jus at home there.

in the afternoon, we went to the french quarter and we visited St. Joseph Catedral. it was truly a classic church, after that dom and i separated from the group and went to explore the church and went on our way for our own shopping, meetin up with the rest later. after that we went to the Opera House and i was impressed by the imensity and grandeur of it all. manage to secure myself a box seat. lol. not to watch a play but jus to sit down there and see the interior of the hall. that very night, we had a opening ceremony for the Vodka and drank to our heart's content and had a very interesting discussion with someone who is just to stubborn to understand the simple points that i was tryin to put across.

Day 4

we left the city area to move to to the countryside. and we visited the Phat Diem Cathedral. it was a chinese-looking church. the journey there took abt 3hours and we visited the area and i saw many paddy fields. the church itself was more impressive by than St. Joseph's. but the trip there was spoilt by some people who just cant keep their mouth shut but rather choose to question the core of our Catholic faith. showing no respect at all to our religion. questionin Cathlolism itself in God's Own Backyard.

after that we went for some shopping at the night market and bought stuffs and we called it a day. of course, what is a day without some vodka? dom, elly and i together with mr lim spend sth in the room talking some kok before we went off to sleep.

Day 5

Check out in the morning, and after that it was off to Pottery Village and i am amazed by how something so difficult can appear as something so easy to the craftsman. went for a cyclo ride after lunch and i really enjoyed the ride. it was jus like riding a trisaw. and we went around the Old Quarter. after that we head off to the Airport to prepare to come home.

and finally it was Home Sweet Home!!!


International Air Cadet Exchange (Singapore) 28th May 06 to 12th June 06

in total i help out for half of the exchange due to overseas trip. and i totally enjoyed myself there as we bonded with the cadets. of course we visited the standard places of interest in Singpore eg. Zoo, Sentosa, Night Safari, Wild Wild Wet etc. me did not go to all the places but to some like the zoo and sentosa. though it was free for all the CLTs, i would say the Air CLTs really did try to make their stay as fun as possible but interacting with them and making them feel at home. but i simply do not understand the unnecessary presence some Land people. after all this is purely an AIR stuff. they come for it also extra. like when they visit the Airbases, they really stand out.
not that i wanna say, but i think that some people are really born with thick skin and skulls even though they may be smart and come from branded schools. IQ high but EQ low. maybe the dumb blonde theory is correct except that this time round is not a dumb blonde but a dumb chinese. but ya. we can all feel the animosity that is in existence whenever that they are around and they cant feel it? are they really that thick skin or bu yao lian (dun wan face) ? i do not believe it. they should jus knw when to quit even though their intentions may be good? is it? shall be nice and give them benefit of doubt. :)) would say that we treat them nicely coz there were foreign cadets about. but if not....god knows what wld have happened to them.

see i am nice and not like the meanie that feline say i am. kekeke.

like they say, birds of a feather flock together. no wonder She is such good friends with them. all of them are exactly the same. thankx god, she wasnt helpin out too otherwise she would have join the list of hated outcasts which i think she should.

am really sad they have to go as after all, all good things must come to an end. i do hope to see them again sth in the future though i doubt that there wld ever be such a chance again.

i guess that is all for now. shall comment more tomorrow.

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right now, sitting in air office using Sham's lappy to update my blog and to connect with the world. while the rest are catching the Singapore Idol Results Show. guess we are going to start our movie marathorn later.

jus had kayaking today. been quite a long time since i last went to kayak and it was a real fun time today when i went with the foreign cadets. tomorrow will be sentosa outing and soon IACE will be over and all of us will be back to our old lifestyles.

book into camp last nite with Jamie. had dinner with her and Eric, her friend initially before catching a cab into camp. following which we started with a movie marathorn which lasted throughout the night. Fique, Alvin, Shams, Jamie and myself. caught 3 movies through the night. started off with Scary Movie 4, Wet Dreams then finally American Pie: The Wedding. it was really shiok and quite fun. and we are going to continue with Round 2 tonight. :)) tonight shows would be far more interesting as we jus went to rent some movies ta catch

going home on sunday. then after sunday, my hols would officially start then i can stay home to slack and rot already. then before long it will be the start of school and followed by Mid Year. really need to start some form of revision now. keke.

it seems that whatever that i say on my blog is open for a lot of scrutiny by some annoymous people. i mean, if you dare to pass such comments jus have some balls (if you have) to leave ur name behind. is it really that hard?

this blog is a private blog for my personal viewing and the viewings of my friends. if you do not like what i have written on my blog, jus click on the X button at the top right hand of the screen or you can always link to another blog. i did not force or ask you to read my blog, rather i prefer if no one reads my blog. so at least i can have some privacy to scold or curse at anyone and everyone. or to state my true feelings about certain things or people. but no, these few jokers choose to leave behind comments which i deemed is unnecessary. moreover, i do not talk to strangers. they seem to be threading between the fine line between stupidity and ignorance.

i do not mind if my friends comment about it, at least they know me to a certain extent. unlike you, a total stranger whom i barely know. but i tell you what, i give you benefit of doubt. maybe you know me but i do not know you.

do keep talking, someday sometime somehow, i believe something intelligent will come out from your mouth! :))

back from Hanoi for around 2 days. you can say that i sorta miss the place. not because of the people that went there but rather because of the lifestyle that the people lead. a simple and yet not complex lifestyle with no heavy reliances on technologies. it is something that you cannot find here in singapore. my post on my history trip would come later, as it is quite a long one.

i would say that this hanoi trip really benefitted me as i got to know not only myself better but also my classmates too. my initial impression of people really went further downhill after this trip as i got to see what i would deem as the ugly sides of many of my classmates. however, some impressions remain unchanged. well, but it doesnt take an idiot to guess which classmates of mine whom very existence that i simply detest now. cant help it, jus being me. if i hate u, i really do. nth you do can change it.

if you think that you understand me, you don't. i think that i am jus like an onion, many layers and when you think that you peel off one, there is another lurking beneath. i can be fun loving or i can be a real bastard but i am still being me. how others view me doesnt really concern me, i am jus happy being myself, in the ways that i feel would be best. i have never seek to be understood by anyone as i do not feel the need to do so. my actions speak for themselves.

to my frenz, i believe i appear as a fun loving dude with no care for my surrondings who borders on the fine line between stupidity. haha. which is quite amusing most of the time i must say as it gets me the things that i want which is quite useful. so jus take me as that and dun try to understand me better. i am quite a complicated character. everything that i do, i do it for a reason. manipulative? perhaps. scheming? perhaps. i really dont care what others think abt me. it's better not to knw. what you do not knw cant hurt you. and i am reemphasising it.

sometimes, i think that being too loyal to frenz is no good at all. it doesnt pay to be that loyal. my actions jus get misinterpreted and i get misunderstood. good intentions turn to bad ones. it happens all the time. minghui was an example. sometimes i think i care too much that why when my actions catches up with me it hurts so badly. is it really worth it to suffer for friends? does it really pay to be loyal? i shld really question myself after all that had happened. i do know that sometimes i like to impose my thinkin on others, but i really cant help it when i see my friends walkin down a disastrous route. it's jus not me. i am not the type that leave my frenz in the lurch. i would rather hurt myself than my frenz. but after all that had happened to me. i guess my thinkin may perhaps be warped. perhaps it's time to reevaluate.

seriously, i cant really be bothered with all the things that has happened alr. if it's meant to be, it will be. i jus leave it to fate. i believe tat fate is not blind and justice would prevail on the side of the victims.

i cant be with the same group of frenz everyday. besides you, i have other frenz too. i have to balance between both. you dont expect me to be with you everyday, every hour rite? you are not my only frenz. i feel that i am neither here nor there. i could be everywhere with anyone. not necessary with the same group of people. i learn frm my mistakes of last year and i do not seek to make the same one again.

well, a long time ago, i did open up myself to someone, but in the end i ended up gettin hurt, i got this person to understand me which i think she did but in the end all my efforts came to naught as i learnt that she was just like the stereotypical impression that i have for every other girl. she was no different. all girls are the same. it was because of them that the original sin came about when eve was tempted by the snake who in turn later went to tempt adam.

after all that has happened i would still stand by my stand that gers are nothing but trouble. and they are serious trouble and it is a bias point of view which i do not care to change irregardless of what others may have to say.

i just plain hate most girls because of YOU........

Back From Hanoi, Vietnam.

so many things to say but so little time. will do a super long updating at the end of the week when the foreign cadets go back. right now all i will say is that the trip is fun and enjoyable but of coz there wld be certain incidents that sorta spoilt it. that's all for now. :))