off to chalet tomorrow :))
would be much more fun than you know wat ;)
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Thursday, November 23, 2006
It's OVER!!!!
Officially as of 21st November 2006. A Levels is Over! and so is education for me. Screw it man!! this day has like finally come aft 3 loooong years of waiting. am glad to be over and done with it, regardless of the results.
started off my 1st day of freedom with a visit to kumar's chalet. it was an MI All Guys Chalet. haha. where we spend the time gambling. made a modest profit frm it. aft tat headed down to Katong Shopping Centre whereby mark, sara, jon, sj and me thaw the nite gaming. caught the bus home later. was suppose to go down with john to st gab's coz they were havin their annual camp but was too shag that i pang seh him, choosin instead my bed over him :P
well, today went exercising with john and a lesson learn is nvr to go exercising with an NSF. :P they wld do all sorts of funny exercises. esp if they are sadistic officers or specs. wahaha. ya. aft that headed down with john to st gab's, where we spent the rest of the morning.
jus being there brought back alot of memories. it has been a long while seen i went back there. haha. and it's amazing that the teachers still remember me :)) well, guess i was jus a thinny whinny too prominant during my sec sch days that left an impression on them. haha, maybe 1 day, i would jus tell my real sec sch story not the censored one.
anyways, vincent, riozhard, john and i sat down and talk about old times and upcoming NS. and like how john puts it "it is all these tekaning experiences that we received during our NCC life that makes it so memorable to us after we leave that we still remember them" truth to tell, i still remember my ncc times. i would say that it's really true. i seem to remember all the times we had during training and in school. well, like some of us like to say "if the cadets liked us, then we are doing something wrong" hehe. the fun, the torturous, the sad times. dun mind going through them again. would say they are more fun than my pre u days. and the friends that i make there are more lasting than there too. :))
long day ahead tmr. meetin meow. going out with meow. collect my pack. then. later with my makkals.
Officially as of 21st November 2006. A Levels is Over! and so is education for me. Screw it man!! this day has like finally come aft 3 loooong years of waiting. am glad to be over and done with it, regardless of the results.
started off my 1st day of freedom with a visit to kumar's chalet. it was an MI All Guys Chalet. haha. where we spend the time gambling. made a modest profit frm it. aft tat headed down to Katong Shopping Centre whereby mark, sara, jon, sj and me thaw the nite gaming. caught the bus home later. was suppose to go down with john to st gab's coz they were havin their annual camp but was too shag that i pang seh him, choosin instead my bed over him :P
well, today went exercising with john and a lesson learn is nvr to go exercising with an NSF. :P they wld do all sorts of funny exercises. esp if they are sadistic officers or specs. wahaha. ya. aft that headed down with john to st gab's, where we spent the rest of the morning.
jus being there brought back alot of memories. it has been a long while seen i went back there. haha. and it's amazing that the teachers still remember me :)) well, guess i was jus a thinny whinny too prominant during my sec sch days that left an impression on them. haha, maybe 1 day, i would jus tell my real sec sch story not the censored one.
anyways, vincent, riozhard, john and i sat down and talk about old times and upcoming NS. and like how john puts it "it is all these tekaning experiences that we received during our NCC life that makes it so memorable to us after we leave that we still remember them" truth to tell, i still remember my ncc times. i would say that it's really true. i seem to remember all the times we had during training and in school. well, like some of us like to say "if the cadets liked us, then we are doing something wrong" hehe. the fun, the torturous, the sad times. dun mind going through them again. would say they are more fun than my pre u days. and the friends that i make there are more lasting than there too. :))
long day ahead tmr. meetin meow. going out with meow. collect my pack. then. later with my makkals.
Sunday, November 19, 2006
6 DOWN, 2 to go.
2 more days and i would be free!!!!!!!!!
i really cant wait for it to be over man. so many plans. so many things to do. just before enlistment. haha. i think i am in post A levels mood already. starting to relax a little bit liao. and who cares about the results? aft all what done is done. the papers are already in London waiting to be picked up to be marked. so let's party away while we let some foreigners decide our fate.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
let's do a little self reflection here, with regard to my NCC career which has drawn to a closure with the submittion of my Gold Cert Application recently. it is a grand total of 7 fruitful years that i have served the corps. 4 as a cadet. 3 as a CLT. and i am definitely proud to be in St Gab's Air Unit. winning the Best Air Unit 3 times out of my 4 years there really stiffen our backbone and instill us with a overwhelming sense of pride for our unit.
i started off as a fresh cadet in Part A in St Gabriel's NCC (AIR) Unit in the year 2000. The year in which our unit officially became a school unit. and i belonged to the 1st batch of school cadets. we numbered 50 Part A cadets initally and as the years went by, our numbers dwindled and at the end at our ROD in sec4, we numbered 30 cadets in our part. not that i am racist or wat. but our part of totally devoid of muslim cadets. not a single one remain after we hit part B.
Part A and Part B was probably the most fun years of my life as Air Cadet.
brotherhood and unity truly existed amongst us. there was no power struggles, no politics playing, no backstabbing. all was well, and all was fun. we suffered together, we had fun together. this is something that money cant buy. even to this very day, we still bear scars of "suffering" that we endure and to a certain extent enjoyed during our cadets day. my callous palms, whose skin had harden due to the many pumpings that we did on the turmac road under the hot sun. i was lucky to participate as part of the Guard of Honour Contigent for my school's speech day when i was in Part A. and that was probably a proud moment for me as a new cadet. that, besides my promotion to LCP was a defining moment for me.
come the following year, i was in Part B. and i would admit that i did got bored of NCC after a while due to the same old stuffs that we do, week in, week out. but quitting was not on my mind due to the many friends that i have made there. i am also proud to announce that half my part came from my class, 2E2. :)) and ya. it was a rather uneventful year with me gettin my CPL rank after attending Silver Wing.
Part C: a defining year for all of us as this year would be the year that we are judged and appointed accordingly to our abilities as leaders of the unit. this was when all the wayanging and all the backstabbing starting appearing. cracks started to appear in our otherwise united part. but 1 thing, that all of us have to admit was that when we are out of school and in HQ NCC or anywhere whereby we are representives of the unit, our unit was unbrokable, unshakable. but despite these negative points, when it comes to handling tasks, we would put aside our differences and work with professionalism in completing it with efficency. it was during this year that i went for my 1st overseas trip to Gunung Ledang and many of the ppl that were there with me were also my platoon mates in CLT Course.
towards the latter half of the year, we were finally appointed with appointments in the Unit. i was appointed the RSM (Regimental Sergent Major) of St Gabriel's NCC (AIR) Unit and that was probably the proudest moment in my career as a cadet at secondary school level. but with power comes responsibility. and that was my first real task as a leader. working closely with the USM and 2 ASMs to run the unit. each of us have our own different tasks and responsibilities. it also gave experiences with working with my peers and it taught me ppl management which would help greatly later on as a CLT.
Part D: we were in the twilight of our cadet years, and each of us, i must admit were not looking forward to stepping down as it would mean the drawing of the curtain our cadet years. i felt the same way too as i know that this unit that gave me 4 meaningful years would leave me yearning for the unit and i would really miss it. finally, all good things must come to an end, and it was with great sadness that we stepped down. i could still remember the tears that whelm up in the eyes of some of my peers. and i could still remember the speech that Leonard, our USM gave which was done in a tone of sadness and pride. such memories are priceless.
despite the many politic playing and power struggles that existed in Part D. i still throughly enjoyed myself. the ego clashes, the fun times, such things are hard to forget.
i decided to sign on for the 46th Intake of CLTs to come back to my unit as a CLT and to bring them to greater heights. i was not the only one that had this thinking. Alvin and Wei Liang too shared the same thinking as me. and it was with this in mind that we signed on.
CLT Course really opened my mind to many things. it was the toughest course that i had ever went through. 3 weeks of pure hell. and the only time that we get to book out is Saturdays, and i could still remember us counting down to the days that we book out and pass out. CLT Course challenged me physically and mentally. and our CLT Course was not like how it is now. it was the last course that can actually be considered as a course that tekan you mentally and physically. the intakes that comes after us were trained in the different way with much more emphasis being placed on welfare rather than discipline.
which 46th CLT could ever forget the Lieutanants that took us? the tekan that we went through. the highlights of the Course was the Hell nights that we received nightly without fail. and the climax of it was probably the shifting of bunks. where the entire course was given 12 mins to evacuate frm both BLK 245 and 246 with all our barang barang, pillow case, blankets and bedsheets. the marching from point to point and the shoutings and scoldings that we get whenever we fail to perform up to our instructors' very high expectations. it was an honour for me to be selected in the 1st Welcome Guards. and the Guest of Honour was the Chief of Army, MG Desmond Kwek.
Syndicate 5 which was the syndicate that i belong in was happening man. haha. all the cheers that we did. the pain that we endured. the many tears that we shed for one another. and the encouragement that we gave some of our platoon mates who wanted to quit coz the course was too tough. it really bonded us. how many of us could actually forget the Rain Incident. the turning point for us. the talk cock session that we had after that which resulted in us ending up in tears as we repented from our mistakes and wrongdoings.
and it was after 3 weeks of hardship, fun and suffering that we passed out officially as CLTs of the 46th Intake. this was when the journey truly begin for us as newly appointed leaders.
my CLT life though was fun was also filled with sadness and heavy responsibilities. everything come at a price. i belonged to the pioneer batch of Supernumeries that HQ NCC had set up.
i thought that i could return to St Gab's as a CLT but i was wrong. we had too many CLTs and my new CO suggested that we stay at another unit to gain experience and to learn. i felt betrayed, i must admit. and this was the 1 motivating factor that spur me on as a CLT. i want to be the best that i can ever be. to prove to my new CO that it was a mistake to let us go and not take us in. thus, we went to Changkat Changi NCC (AIR) Unit. we went there reluctantly initally, but as time went by, we felt a sense of belonging and a sense of duty towards the unit.
i have no regrets being at Changkat. in fact, i am happy to be there as i really learn much more as a leader, as a person, as a CLT over there then i ever would at St Gab's. this was what that really mould me and transformed me. even though, deep down in my heart i still yearn to be back at St Gab's. i chose to remain there. because of a promise that i made to my Part to see them through to Part D and i would honour my promise as it is my duty to them as a leader.
the 1st year there was not easy. NPCC was the pre dominant CCA there. and our team tried to break the monopoly that they created. it was not easy and it landed us in hot soup sometimes for our actions for the good of the unit. we felt that it was worth it. it was with much effort and it took us a year to finally break the stranglehold that they have. and i am proud to announce that NCC is the dominant CCA there. and it was not only our team's effort. the cadets had just an important role to play too in it. it was through all these that i learned man management, writing of proposals, being a big brother to them etc.
2005 marks the opening of our female unit. and now the CLTs have to multi task. but kudos and all thanks to Yue Yun for training the gals. i guess i never got around to telling you how appreciative we were of it. but well, things would never be the same again. and ya, dun think you be hearing this from me. Thank You & I'm Sorry.
the highlight of my CLT career would probably being appointed as Air 2IC before moving on to being Air OIC. with such a title came huge responsibilities and i had to bear the burn of the actions of some of my clts at times and served as a mediator at other times. i've improved much more a leader and a person at this point, i feel. and of course, the exchange programs that i went which seriously improved my communication skills and people relations. it was truly a great learning experience.
well, in the end i was awarded with an Outstanding CLT Award in recongnition of my contributions and achievements. but i would say this dwarf my other achievements. My Greatest Achievement would be to have put Changkat on the map of NCC and to have laid the foundations for the makings of a rising Unit. this is my greatest achievement as a CLT.
i have never regretted being a CLT even though there were a few incidents that left a sour feeling in me. being a CLT taught me skills and gave me experiences that cadet life would never have given me. it taught me much and such skills would be put to use in the real world next time. as i leave NCC for the real this time, i know i would miss the organisation and the times that i had there. these are truly and really memories that can never be forgotten or replaced.
Thank You! NCC, for the 7 years of experiences and self exploration that was given to me.
i started off as a fresh cadet in Part A in St Gabriel's NCC (AIR) Unit in the year 2000. The year in which our unit officially became a school unit. and i belonged to the 1st batch of school cadets. we numbered 50 Part A cadets initally and as the years went by, our numbers dwindled and at the end at our ROD in sec4, we numbered 30 cadets in our part. not that i am racist or wat. but our part of totally devoid of muslim cadets. not a single one remain after we hit part B.
Part A and Part B was probably the most fun years of my life as Air Cadet.
brotherhood and unity truly existed amongst us. there was no power struggles, no politics playing, no backstabbing. all was well, and all was fun. we suffered together, we had fun together. this is something that money cant buy. even to this very day, we still bear scars of "suffering" that we endure and to a certain extent enjoyed during our cadets day. my callous palms, whose skin had harden due to the many pumpings that we did on the turmac road under the hot sun. i was lucky to participate as part of the Guard of Honour Contigent for my school's speech day when i was in Part A. and that was probably a proud moment for me as a new cadet. that, besides my promotion to LCP was a defining moment for me.
come the following year, i was in Part B. and i would admit that i did got bored of NCC after a while due to the same old stuffs that we do, week in, week out. but quitting was not on my mind due to the many friends that i have made there. i am also proud to announce that half my part came from my class, 2E2. :)) and ya. it was a rather uneventful year with me gettin my CPL rank after attending Silver Wing.
Part C: a defining year for all of us as this year would be the year that we are judged and appointed accordingly to our abilities as leaders of the unit. this was when all the wayanging and all the backstabbing starting appearing. cracks started to appear in our otherwise united part. but 1 thing, that all of us have to admit was that when we are out of school and in HQ NCC or anywhere whereby we are representives of the unit, our unit was unbrokable, unshakable. but despite these negative points, when it comes to handling tasks, we would put aside our differences and work with professionalism in completing it with efficency. it was during this year that i went for my 1st overseas trip to Gunung Ledang and many of the ppl that were there with me were also my platoon mates in CLT Course.
towards the latter half of the year, we were finally appointed with appointments in the Unit. i was appointed the RSM (Regimental Sergent Major) of St Gabriel's NCC (AIR) Unit and that was probably the proudest moment in my career as a cadet at secondary school level. but with power comes responsibility. and that was my first real task as a leader. working closely with the USM and 2 ASMs to run the unit. each of us have our own different tasks and responsibilities. it also gave experiences with working with my peers and it taught me ppl management which would help greatly later on as a CLT.
Part D: we were in the twilight of our cadet years, and each of us, i must admit were not looking forward to stepping down as it would mean the drawing of the curtain our cadet years. i felt the same way too as i know that this unit that gave me 4 meaningful years would leave me yearning for the unit and i would really miss it. finally, all good things must come to an end, and it was with great sadness that we stepped down. i could still remember the tears that whelm up in the eyes of some of my peers. and i could still remember the speech that Leonard, our USM gave which was done in a tone of sadness and pride. such memories are priceless.
despite the many politic playing and power struggles that existed in Part D. i still throughly enjoyed myself. the ego clashes, the fun times, such things are hard to forget.
i decided to sign on for the 46th Intake of CLTs to come back to my unit as a CLT and to bring them to greater heights. i was not the only one that had this thinking. Alvin and Wei Liang too shared the same thinking as me. and it was with this in mind that we signed on.
CLT Course really opened my mind to many things. it was the toughest course that i had ever went through. 3 weeks of pure hell. and the only time that we get to book out is Saturdays, and i could still remember us counting down to the days that we book out and pass out. CLT Course challenged me physically and mentally. and our CLT Course was not like how it is now. it was the last course that can actually be considered as a course that tekan you mentally and physically. the intakes that comes after us were trained in the different way with much more emphasis being placed on welfare rather than discipline.
which 46th CLT could ever forget the Lieutanants that took us? the tekan that we went through. the highlights of the Course was the Hell nights that we received nightly without fail. and the climax of it was probably the shifting of bunks. where the entire course was given 12 mins to evacuate frm both BLK 245 and 246 with all our barang barang, pillow case, blankets and bedsheets. the marching from point to point and the shoutings and scoldings that we get whenever we fail to perform up to our instructors' very high expectations. it was an honour for me to be selected in the 1st Welcome Guards. and the Guest of Honour was the Chief of Army, MG Desmond Kwek.
Syndicate 5 which was the syndicate that i belong in was happening man. haha. all the cheers that we did. the pain that we endured. the many tears that we shed for one another. and the encouragement that we gave some of our platoon mates who wanted to quit coz the course was too tough. it really bonded us. how many of us could actually forget the Rain Incident. the turning point for us. the talk cock session that we had after that which resulted in us ending up in tears as we repented from our mistakes and wrongdoings.
and it was after 3 weeks of hardship, fun and suffering that we passed out officially as CLTs of the 46th Intake. this was when the journey truly begin for us as newly appointed leaders.
my CLT life though was fun was also filled with sadness and heavy responsibilities. everything come at a price. i belonged to the pioneer batch of Supernumeries that HQ NCC had set up.
i thought that i could return to St Gab's as a CLT but i was wrong. we had too many CLTs and my new CO suggested that we stay at another unit to gain experience and to learn. i felt betrayed, i must admit. and this was the 1 motivating factor that spur me on as a CLT. i want to be the best that i can ever be. to prove to my new CO that it was a mistake to let us go and not take us in. thus, we went to Changkat Changi NCC (AIR) Unit. we went there reluctantly initally, but as time went by, we felt a sense of belonging and a sense of duty towards the unit.
i have no regrets being at Changkat. in fact, i am happy to be there as i really learn much more as a leader, as a person, as a CLT over there then i ever would at St Gab's. this was what that really mould me and transformed me. even though, deep down in my heart i still yearn to be back at St Gab's. i chose to remain there. because of a promise that i made to my Part to see them through to Part D and i would honour my promise as it is my duty to them as a leader.
the 1st year there was not easy. NPCC was the pre dominant CCA there. and our team tried to break the monopoly that they created. it was not easy and it landed us in hot soup sometimes for our actions for the good of the unit. we felt that it was worth it. it was with much effort and it took us a year to finally break the stranglehold that they have. and i am proud to announce that NCC is the dominant CCA there. and it was not only our team's effort. the cadets had just an important role to play too in it. it was through all these that i learned man management, writing of proposals, being a big brother to them etc.
2005 marks the opening of our female unit. and now the CLTs have to multi task. but kudos and all thanks to Yue Yun for training the gals. i guess i never got around to telling you how appreciative we were of it. but well, things would never be the same again. and ya, dun think you be hearing this from me. Thank You & I'm Sorry.
the highlight of my CLT career would probably being appointed as Air 2IC before moving on to being Air OIC. with such a title came huge responsibilities and i had to bear the burn of the actions of some of my clts at times and served as a mediator at other times. i've improved much more a leader and a person at this point, i feel. and of course, the exchange programs that i went which seriously improved my communication skills and people relations. it was truly a great learning experience.
well, in the end i was awarded with an Outstanding CLT Award in recongnition of my contributions and achievements. but i would say this dwarf my other achievements. My Greatest Achievement would be to have put Changkat on the map of NCC and to have laid the foundations for the makings of a rising Unit. this is my greatest achievement as a CLT.
i have never regretted being a CLT even though there were a few incidents that left a sour feeling in me. being a CLT taught me skills and gave me experiences that cadet life would never have given me. it taught me much and such skills would be put to use in the real world next time. as i leave NCC for the real this time, i know i would miss the organisation and the times that i had there. these are truly and really memories that can never be forgotten or replaced.
Thank You! NCC, for the 7 years of experiences and self exploration that was given to me.
Friday, November 17, 2006
Question to Ponder:
Is the Pot calling the Kettle Black?
let me make something crystal clear here. i am offering my help, if one wanna take it, one take it. if one dont, dont make lots of noise at the end that may imply this and that. and yes, this is a disclaimer. if one feel that what i, the author says needs clarification or confirmation, approach me and ASK. i do not bite.
over the years, i came to know myself much better as a person. i realise that i am your straight forward kinda guy that is not afraid to say anything and everything to your face regardless of what the consequences maybe. if i feel that its wrong, i would tell you. even if i do not say anything, i believe that my actions speaks volumes. after all, actions speaks louder than words.
being direct has landed me in hot soup for quite a number of occasions. but i jus dont care. i believe i thread on the fine line of being direct and being rude. but that is the way that i am. i do not believe in changing myself jus because a few individuals feel offended with the way that i am and the things that i say. i do not mince back my words jus because it offends, my point of view is my point of view. i have every right to express them. well, i believe in being myself and not being the guy that ppl expects me to be. and the same could be say about me being in a relationship.
anyways, i think it is rubbish expressing point of view online, but i still do it. ironic isnt it? after all this is my personal blog and i can rant anything that i wan here. if one can take it, one can always leave and dun read my blog ever again. i dun need patrons here. i would be happier if no one reads it.
Monday, November 13, 2006
Operation DTEBBQCC29300106 is finally settled. the final proposal for food was done today at amk lib where i toil under the cold conditions to master my econs earlier and it was in the evening that my makkals came to visit and thus we settled it once and for all, which also happen to be inclusive of a visit to NTUC to doublecheck our earlier prices. well, it's from 29th Nov to 1st Dec and invitations to this chalet - Operation DTEBBQCC29300106 would be handed out to a selected few in the coming days. :)) a weight off my shoulders, though i knw that i am suppose to be studyin :P but hell, how long can planning take up man? hehe. maybe that is why AIR CLTS rocks, coz we are efficent in excecuting our tasks and would stick with it till the end. :D wahahaha.
ok... completed my lit paper 1 today. 3 down, 5 to go. soon it would be all over. well, today's lit paper set me thinking on certain issues as i attempted the question on Measure for Measure where we are told to examine the dramatic importance of reputation in Measure for Measure.
what exactly is reputation? Abraham Lincoln once quoted that "character is like a tree and reputation its shadow, the shadow is what we think it is, the tree is the real thing" dictionary.com offers me 4 different explainations to understanding it.
2. favorable repute; good name: to ruin one's reputation by misconduct.
3. a favorable and publicly recognized name or standing for merit, achievement, reliability
ok... completed my lit paper 1 today. 3 down, 5 to go. soon it would be all over. well, today's lit paper set me thinking on certain issues as i attempted the question on Measure for Measure where we are told to examine the dramatic importance of reputation in Measure for Measure.
what exactly is reputation? Abraham Lincoln once quoted that "character is like a tree and reputation its shadow, the shadow is what we think it is, the tree is the real thing" dictionary.com offers me 4 different explainations to understanding it.
1. the estimation in which a person or thing is held, esp. by the community or the public generally; repute: a man of good reputation.
2. favorable repute; good name: to ruin one's reputation by misconduct.
3. a favorable and publicly recognized name or standing for merit, achievement, reliability
4. the estimation or name of being, having, having done something specific
the above explainations really explains quite a bit towards what reputation is exactly.
well, let us take a moment of silence and sit down and ponder and be honest to ourselves for once in our life and let's reflect on ourselves as a person and the role that reputation plays in our life.
how many of us really do not gun for reputation and recongnition so that we can be famous and we can be popular in everything or anything that we do? actually, all of us do at some point or another, myself included. and i must admit, building a reputation was what spurred me on to do some of the things that i do, be it good or bad, right or wrong. bathing in the glorification of one's achievement and the feeling of self importance is not a feeling that one would get every single day and it is a feeling that all of us would want to be able to feel at some point of our life. and being brought up in an asian community, it probably forms the core of our very being. an unfalling foundation in our lives. losing face is equalvalent to being better off than dead. once reputation is lost, it can never be regain.
however, this is not that point that i want to make.
i would compared a person with reputation or who really cares about it to an onion. an onion as we all knw has many layers. it is thick and cannot be penetrated easily. it takes lots of effort which would often leave us in tears. it has a weapon that protects it frm being penetrated. and i would draw parallel with reputation. some people tend to surrond ourselves with an aura of self importance, like how an onion surronds itself with layers. leading us to believe that they are the person that they are not. building up such a solid reputation that we stand in the awe of their presence. and i believe that in some place in our hearts we hope to be like them somehow. not only can reputation be used to describe this, other traits can be used to describe it too. say maybe confidence, cool guy attitude, jovialness, arrogance etc. these are only some of the many traits that we surrond ourselves with, wrapping ourselves up like a popiah. haha.
and when setbacks or opposition attack us, we tend to withdraw withn this make belief protection and defend ourselves against whatever that is attacking us for example, head on confrontation or quarrells. but what happens if this shell that we seek their protection in is peel off layer by layer. and before long, we are naked without the shell as a form of protection? it is only then that we are most vulnerable and most exposed. and i believe that it is only at this point that our true self really make an appearance and we would learn that we are not the person that we make ourselves to be. however, it is dependant on the invidual. some people are just not plain acting. they are who they are even without their shells.
i also believe that people adopt a different personality in front of others for several reasons. they are not the real them but rather they are the reel them. they become the person that they may not be. it is like acting on stage, being someone that one is obviously not. it could boil down to several reasons. it could be due to wanting to gain social acceptance, to hide the insecurity that plagued their very being, to disguise the flaw in their character. it is very vague and the reasons may differ from person to person and this is what i think that could possibly be the few reasons towards my point.
i guess i strayed too much away from my main point of reputation. haha. but who cares. GP is way over already. and now i can write as much out of point as i want. hehe. ok... lame here. lol.
reputation can make or break us. sometimes, i feel that it is necessary to sacrifice reputation in order to continuing keeping the several things that one hold dear. i believe the sacrifice is worth it. for even though people forgive and never forget, reputation can still be build up after it's lost. but however, frenz and loved ones once lost at the expense of one's reputation can never be regain even if forgiving does take place. things would never like how it was before. people change. circumstances change. evolution some calls it. and i have learn lessons from it. a lesson learned is a lesson learn. but this is also dependent on a case by case basis. in some instances, it was better to have lost them than to keep them.
the end justify the means. how you get there, does it really matter at all?
it is completely irrelavant to be bothered about the ways, but rather it is relevant to be bothered about the results that are achieve from it. sacrificing self, sacrifcing frenz, sacrificing everything izzit really important? after all, we are normally judged by our results towards of mission rather than the actions taken to accomplish them. morality may be lacking due to the ruthless attitude displayed. but i believe that for one to be successful, one must not only have friends but must also be ruthless towards the conduct of one's goal.
the hypocriptical attitude of society or friends or peers? the selfishness of self? i leave it up to your own discretion. however, this is what i believe, this is what i observed. i may be wrong, but hell, we are all entitle to our own views. you may agree or disagree. it is of no consequence to me. i dont really care. jus typing what i think and what i feel. that's about it :))
Friday, November 10, 2006
jus came home from my godbro, jackson's wedding. lol. jessie, his bride look totally ravishing today man. guess gers always look their best on their wedding day :P not that they are not pretty to begin with but rather they look totally out of this world, as if an angel have decended upon us.
sat beside yvonne and chatted with her throughout the dinner. been quite some time since i last saw her and we did alot of catching up. ending off with the all familiar phrase, that we would catch up after my A's. which i am intending to do so before i enlist. haha. doin my A's sucks big time man. Gen and Kris jio me to go clubbin with them after dinner and i cant go coz i've to study for my papers next week, which happen to be everyday except thursday. so ya. once again i told them aft A's and yes, i am going to do so aft A's. ya. and on top of that, i still got a clubbin trip with Pat, date with michs ;P and my very own chalet, ya and not forgettin class chalet. looks like i am really going to enjoy myself before i enlist man. so ya. wat u waiting for? book me before i'm taken :P
lesson that i learn today. haha never offer to drink twice of wat the bridegroom drinks especially when he called for reinforcments to help him drink. you'll end up biting more than u can chew. lol. you wei and i challenge him to drink up the big glass of beer and we ended up drinking twice of what he drank. bleahs :(( kena conned.
had my euro hist paper today. overall, was not as hard as i thought it to be, but i still think that i am going to fail. anyways, what done is done and let's put this paper behind me and concentrate on the upcoming papers, which include Econs and Lit. all killers.
1 more week and i'll be through :)) Hoo Yah!!!
feline and michs went to ophir. have fun there. :)) miss ya? yes i do. lol.
sat beside yvonne and chatted with her throughout the dinner. been quite some time since i last saw her and we did alot of catching up. ending off with the all familiar phrase, that we would catch up after my A's. which i am intending to do so before i enlist. haha. doin my A's sucks big time man. Gen and Kris jio me to go clubbin with them after dinner and i cant go coz i've to study for my papers next week, which happen to be everyday except thursday. so ya. once again i told them aft A's and yes, i am going to do so aft A's. ya. and on top of that, i still got a clubbin trip with Pat, date with michs ;P and my very own chalet, ya and not forgettin class chalet. looks like i am really going to enjoy myself before i enlist man. so ya. wat u waiting for? book me before i'm taken :P
lesson that i learn today. haha never offer to drink twice of wat the bridegroom drinks especially when he called for reinforcments to help him drink. you'll end up biting more than u can chew. lol. you wei and i challenge him to drink up the big glass of beer and we ended up drinking twice of what he drank. bleahs :(( kena conned.
had my euro hist paper today. overall, was not as hard as i thought it to be, but i still think that i am going to fail. anyways, what done is done and let's put this paper behind me and concentrate on the upcoming papers, which include Econs and Lit. all killers.
1 more week and i'll be through :)) Hoo Yah!!!
feline and michs went to ophir. have fun there. :)) miss ya? yes i do. lol.
Thursday, November 09, 2006
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
Question to Ponder:
Is it better to have loved, then not to have loved at all?
life currently is interesting. with a lot of interesting happenings. i must admit i am really amazed at the extent of the actions of some of my friends
ignorance is bliss. that is my stand.
some things should really stopped. let's solve things the grown up way. forgiving and forgetting are probably the hardest things to do as compared to hating and ignoring. but with self determination & a big heart, it is possible. between friends, there should really be no bad blood. friends hurting friends through their actions would end up with either party being hurt much more and it would ultimately lead to embarrassment from both parties to admit their mistakes and patch up. and this friendship would simply die away.someone once told me, that it is not easy for a couple to get together. it requires fate, courage and determination to make it happen but in this case it would be friends. it is not easy for a pair to be friends. it takes the same ingredients for it to happen. and for it to die away, it's wasteful.
no matter how hot headed we are. friends are after all a foundation in our lives. something that not many of us can do without. even though claims may be made to be able to do so (like myself) actually i say only la. in the end, i still cant do without my friends. and i believed this is what some others may think. friends are people who filled up the empty spaces in our lives, without them, we are empty and lifeless. might as well be dead.
it is common to have our disagreements and our distastes of some of the actions of our friends. like how i used to hate weiliang, a good friend of mine, for his actions and i clashed with him occasionally over it. falling out most of the times over various decisions that we make as leaders. but in the end we still patch up. coz we knw that it was stupid and childish of either party to be resentful of the other and we recongnise the fact that the bonds of friendship should not be broken over issues like this.
"anger clouds judgement, and that is when the primitive side of the brain takes over" like what my former vice-principal, Mr Alcantara used to tell us when we are hurled to his office for fights, which i am guilty off once or twice. and it was only after tat i left school that the magnitude of his words struck me. maybe that explains my coolheadedness sometimes which jus simply drive my friends nuts, especially my fellow clts. haha. experience in such areas ensure that i maintain a coolhead regardless of how angry i am. :P
i'm not afraid to claim that my experiences are plenty as compared to my peers and i think i am much more matured than them in some ways. i've learned many lessons as a leader, both the hard way and the soft way. and there is always 1 common advice: let's jus weigh both sides of the argument before making any decision. as a wrong move would result in "Checkmate"
stress too plays a part in having clouded judgement. this normally gives way to anger and resentment, which would of course be the end cause. we would not think clearly and in the end, jus gettin angry over little stuffs. haha. sounds familiar? coz we are all guilty of it once in a while. if there was ever such a situation, let peace be my gift to you, through prayers and as a friend.
i am not implyin anything. i am jus stating my thoughts, which i am entitled too. dont read too much into it. :))
no man is an island. no one is alone. God is always there with us, and if He is not there, Friends would make up for the missing space.
Monday, November 06, 2006
Question to Ponder:
What is Reel & What is Real
jus completed my gp paper with history coming up this friday. followed by an intense week of paper nearly everyday for the following week. pray that i would last through it unscathed.
life is pretty much the same for me. went out with louisa, justin and benedict with feline joining us that day. after that it was with alvin, merv and wl. of coz not forgetting that study hours happen to be slot in between them.
honestly, i dun really feel stressed coz i knw that for every paper i would jus give my best and i hope that is enuf to see me through. so full steam ahead for the papers that are coming my way.
Never, never, never give up.........
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